I don’t know who this is for, but stop waiting.
What will it take for you to act? To dare? To allow yourself? What are you waiting for?
Know that you aren’t given anything that you’re not able to take on. Decide & act on it now. You’ll catch up along the way. Take the steps. The big ones but most certainly also all the small ones. Don’t underestimate the power of the small steps. Keep moving. It will all unfold along the way.